Assalamualaikom, to any readers out there.

The first intention of me writing this blog was to share some of my frustration and mistakes with somebody who probably don't get to read this blog, but probably resembles the life that i'm taking during the period of the posts. As i linger and read what i wrote about in this blog, some feelings of regret and shame runs through my body. I was a coward then, and still have that cowardice moment in my life now. Have i change through the years i've lived? Am i a different person now from i was before? I can;t answer that. I've lived life regrettably bored and don't know what to do in the end. I'm still searching for what im might do with my life.

Nobody gets to live forever. That's the fact, and what you do with your life with the time you have are crucial. Every decision made leads to many different consequences. Every decisions made create a different opportunity, a chance to better or to be worst at something. There's no point in sitting still, it'll get you nowhere. Face the problems straight on, and you won't be dissapointed even if the result is bad.You've strive through hardship and came out at the other end. You are winner.

Labels. Definition. Tags. What does it do to individuals. None. It only create clumps of people who dress a like, lookalike into certain collective group of people. ITs the end cause of globalisation. Nowadays, people rarely look at individuals. People tags us by the color of our skins, the race of our people and the way that we look. Profiling. Double standards. This issue has been fought for decades, but to no avail. People will always be people unless there's something to be heard. Something to be understand. Something to be fought for.

There will always be options on life. Too many to think it through. Life is short so, don;t procastrate to choose, just pick one and live through it. If its to your liking, stick with it. As simple as that. As a muslim, i'm not as religious or faithful, but i fear Allah Almighty and i know that if i want my life to be easier, just follow the Quran. For it is the way of life. Everything in moderation.

Before this post is getting out of hand and i dive into politics and what not, this is just my rumbling of words and experience, what i've seen, felt and heard through out of my life. Its just a burst of what i want to share and feel like i've done a favor for myself by sharing it with anybody. As i try to follow my own path, this will be a reminder of what thought was passing by me during this certain time. Insya-Allah. Good day, Assalamualaikom.

Alo alo alo.
It's been 3 years since i left a piece of my mind on this free and unread blog. What's new? Well, let me get back on that in a few days. At least until i can figure out what the hell happen in these past 3 years in a post. Until then, its good to be back.

HI to me and the readers, if there is any =))

Long story short, i'm still in pursuing my degree, after all odds and misfortune events, i'm still in the game. But still, i'm still the same as i was before, and it occurs to me that without any changes or initiative, the past might haunt me. All said and done, better play my end-game before i lose everything and left with nothing at all.

Been keeping my tabs on all the others, they seems to doing well, with the whole economic diversity, they still find time to hang out and chat about their life.Hopefully, everyone will bounce back in rendition, and keep on moving forward to a better future.

If by some chances, anybody who reads this have any idea about making business, your post/comments might come handy to me, since i don't do well working under others.

Well, that's all the update for now. Until next time.

Crossroad

I am torn between the path that is presented in front of me. Which one do i choose? I am really concern if i make the wrong choice and pay for it for the rest of my life. I'm really torn. Both choices has it pros and cons. I weight each of them personally and understood the consequences of the choice.

One will lead me to a life presented in a straight line, that hard work and perseverance will make your life happy.

Or, the other one which is more obstacle and junction, which will made life the way you want it to be, be it you give it all.

Both are heavy and i don't know which one to choose. I think the first choice will make my life easier, but the second choice will make my life fulfilling.

Either way is good actually, if i give it my all.

I am torn.

I am scared.

I am lost.

Because, i don't have the courage to do both and achieve something worth meaningful in my life. A waste of time and effort,and all of it for nothing. I can't live a life of regret, or knowing that some bad choice will make my life miserable.

Give up or give in?

Either way, it's only up to me to make the difference.